how much do you know about yourself?

It must have been good 12years ago. I remember being totally turned off by a girl who is always easily overwhelmed by her emotions and decides things based on her emotional experience. On the other side, I always find myself being drawn to people who have sharp acumen, have a pursuit for literature and music, also somewhat reserved. Therefore my choice of friends are not so much of comedians on stage nor standing out ones but refined and relatively quiet ones with qualities slash integrities and a little bit of quirkiness.

It was a painful moment in my life to find out I was in the same category as the girl I often shook my head off.-ENPF. It was shocking realisation to me about the way I have been perceiving human relationships. She was no difference to me. It's just that my thinking indicator was a little bit higher than her feeling indicator but basically our attitudes of approaching things were similar. I also remember being amazed to see how much I was drawn to the particular types by looking at individuals who sat together by categories in the room.

Looking back, it was very refreshing and rather positive. I saw the benefits of this study by taking a step back and pondering the relationship between individuals and my reactions to the relationships to them.

Now repeating this test, I am INPF. Of course people change and I am glad that I have changed.

Are you interested in finding out what type you are from this MBTI test? Try it and let me know what type you are!

worst June ever

According to the news, mansfield is under one of the severe flood warning areas now and locals are advised to stay at home.

But Matt & I were determined to go to the gym after we lost ourselves on largers and pizzas last weekend.

Casually driving through the town, I couldn't believe how badly roads were flooded. we had to try 3 different routes to get to our gym and finally parked near the gym and walked through corned off roads. mind you, rain downpoured this whole month as if there were holes in the sky. (what was heatwave-anytime-now forecast all about?)

I guess this summer weather in Britain will definately make my trip to Korea worth money. plus good old friends will be there to greet me this time. one of my best mates who didn't stay in contact with me is in Seoul for a month and a few good friends who I spent most of my 20s together are in Seoul. It's just a shame that I won't be able to see my best best mate who cut me out of her life after I missed the meeting with her during my short stay in korea last summer. well,,, thinking about it, it has been almost 7 and a half years since I came over to UK. Beside food, one thing I miss terribly by living here is being around friends and feeling connected. It is proven to be difficult here to make friends unless one went to school with them. Maybe,, I am living in the past too much? If I am going to live here for the forseeable future, I'd better be moving on,, at least I have 2 or 3 english friends who are absolutely lovely. But for now,, I'd rather wax nostalgia for a bit longer. when I go back to korea this time,, I will be doing sun bathing for the first time in korean beach (very excited actually) and going completely wild at club with a bunch of my younger ex colleagues, then coming down with my church friends over dinner, weaving in and out of plays, exhibitions in Dae Hak Ro, taking video clips on the house I grew up and that always appears in my dreams, my uni etc. oh, I am definitely buying Eun Hee Kyoung's new novel as well (this woman is genius) matt will be with his friends at beach pretty much for 2 and a half weeks and we will see each other every now and again somewhere in seoul and sokcho (sounds weird for couple on hols doesn't it haha) during my stay.I just can not wait till I get there and feel my country again.

my favourite evening.. drinking wine and listening to chicago.. very loud

You know our love was meant to be

the kind of love that lasts forever.

And I want you here with me

from tonight until the end of time.

You should know everywhere I go

Always on my mind in my heart in my soul baby.You're the meaning in my life

you're the inspiration.

You bring feeling to my life

you're the inspiration.

Wanna have you near me

I wanna have you hear me sayin'

No one needs you more than I need you.

And I know yes I know that it's plain to see

So in love when we're together.

Now I know that I need you here with me

From tonight until the end of time.

You should know

everywhere I go

Always on my mind

you're in my heartin my soul.

You're the meaning in my life.

you're the inspiration. . . .

Wanna have you near me

I wanna have you hear me sayin'

No one needs you more than I need you.

You're the meaning in my life

you're the inspiration.

You bring feeling to my life

you're the inspiration.

When you love somebody 'til the end of time

When you love somebodyalways on my mind

No one needs you more than I.

When you love somebody 'til the end of time. . .

Whenyoulove somebody 'til the end of time. . .

you are the inspiration by chicago

To those who need this

I guess I thought you'd be here forever
Another illusion I chose to create
You don't know what you got until it's gone
And I found out just a little too late
I was acting as if you were lucky to have me
Doing you a favor I hardly knew you were there
But then you were gone
and it was all wrong
Had no idea how much I cared

Now being without you
Takes a lot of getting used to
Should learn to live with it
But I don't want to
Living without you
Is all a big mistake
Instead of getting easier
It's the hardest thing to take
I'm addicted to ya babe
You're a hard habit to break
You found someone else you had every reason
You know I cant blame you for runnin to him
Two people together but living aloneI was spreading my love too thin
After all of these years
I'm still tryin to shake it
Doing much better
they say that it just takes time
But deep in the night
It's an endless flight
I can't get ya out of my mind

Being without you
Takes a lot of getting used to
Should learn to live with it
I don't want to Being without you
Is all a big mistake
Instead of getting any easier
It's the hardest thing to take
I'm addicted to you
You're a hard habit to break

This might sound cheezy to some but for me it breaks my heart. it always does.

suppose, one needs to invest

£2.00 per week 52weeks a year, is it worth it? you do the math
but the joy from the winning is priceless.

June 2007 Project

Now that Matt & I have finished decorating our study, I regret not having taken a photo of the room prior to decoration. Just imagine a yellow painted room with thin peach carpet, one single bed and a computer desk, a few shelves... now immaculately painted walls that are light green with white trim, light brown cushy carpet, matched lamp shades that give you eastern touch, more importantly books we collected and have read!

feel like studying here now

Is there any meaning or justice in the cosmos?

Matt and I went down to Stratford-upon-Avon, Shakespeare's home town to watch King Lear by Royal Shakespeare Company last Thursday.

Not having read King Lear, I was quite interested in watching Sir Ian McKellen playing the old king.

After watching 3-hour-long and intensive play I could not shake off the feeling that I was the King Lear standing in the heath and looking for the answer.

It is amazing what plays can do to people.

Everybody has his or her own way to fulfil inner world, the feelings of existence. some go to pubs for encounters and drinks, others stare at TV waiting for the moments but we go and watch plays.

If you don't know what's on other side, you never feel that you missed out on something.

I was told off by taking this photo on my phone and matt seemed a bit embarrassed but me being korean, I wanted to capture the shot of beautiful courtyard theare.